Last Friday I had my first Expressive Drawing Class with life model. I was eager to work with life models for months!
The class was very dynamic, every 3 minutes the model was changing her pose, we had little time to catch her shapes. Beginning was amazing, I was drawing like crazy, focused, excited and free. It was amazing… amazing until the professor came and told me it was all bad!
What? – I thought. I was upset… How can he say it’s bad? Ok, I know I still need to grasp the rhythm and get better connection with the model to have the expression deeper but it can’t be so bad…? I’m used to draw in an expressive and kind of impressionist way. This is what I always do. ‘An impressionist is the one who does not paint like everyone, does not obey the rules and attitude!’ V.v. Gogh.
The class is called Expressive drawing and I still have to follow some rules? This way I couldn’t be myself. I felt I had to betray my intuition and obey the rules. Soon my anger converted into doubt. Am I on the right path? Perhaps I’m not fit to be an artist… ? What if all that is a mistake? I started to follow the rules, the professor was happier with my drawings but I was not. I didn’t like them at all. They were not mine…
I was thinking all weekend, whether: keep the class? quit the class? learn all the rules? What if the rules will kill my intuition and I will not be able to paint spontaneously anymore? My head was full of thoughts but somehow I felt I should learn. I’ve decided to extend my classes and I took full time academic figure drawing class for 3 months. I don’t know why, but I felt it’ll get me to the next stage. Perhaps you have to learn all the rules, and then forget them all, to be totally free painting. I think this is the right way…
Second expressive drawing class was much better. We were both the professor and myself satisfied with my work. After the whole week of academic drawing classes I felt much more free during the expressive drawing class. I still have a long way to go, but I feel I’m improving a lot!
3 minutes pencil drawing.
Mixed media drawing re-performed at home.
Black and white or colour? Which one do you prefer?